Decoy

I was trying to not care,

While I kept hoping you would care.

Of course I cared,

And maybe you did.

I wanted you to want more.

I wanted you to want me.

I knew you weren’t ready,

But you thought you were.

If you were ready,

Why didn’t you want me?

It’s over now,

Just like I knew it would be.

I knew it wouldn’t work,

From the beginning.

It was supposed to be for fun.

I thought I needed fun,

For once.

I thought you needed me,

To help you get over it all.

Now I just feel used.

You’re not over it,

And I’m left hurting.

Maybe I used you too,

So I could feel needed.

So you could fall for me,

And I could say no.

Because it wasn’t right,

From the beginning.